Obscure, Destroy | Sketch 1

Obscure, Destroy | Sketch 1+ View the sketch on Flickr.

I’ve had a lot rolling around in my head lately — specifically around how to go about being a “real” artist. Being a “real” artist is merely a concept. It doesn’t actually mean anything. It’s not something measurable or tangible or even universally definable.

But I have this Platonic ideal of what an artist is. And I am not this thing.

For a long time now, I have been privately fighting an uphill battle to find a looser technique in my [occasional] work. To find less precision in my linework. To find more expressiveness in my gestures. To convey something demonstrably human-made, I guess. And today, I decided to stop fighting the nature of what I am decidedly good at: tightness.

So much of what I do is so measured, calculated, controlled. And perhaps a bit cold because of it. This goes well beyond pencil sketches and into every facet of my living day.

So I’ve decided to embrace these traits in what I do now. I’m going to push this aspect of me that I’ll never be able to shake out of my being.

But I still want to find a sense of looseness. I want to learn to give up control. I want to learn not to hold that which I create as precious. And so I started a new sketchbook today. I’m calling it my Obscure, Destroy Sketchbook, and I’ve got some simple goals and parameters:

  • Each sketch must consume the entire 2-page spread.
  • Each sketch must in some way obscure or destroy the under-work in some way.
  • Each sketch must use at least one color.

I want to examine controlled destruction. I want to build up and tear down and watch the interplay between the two acts. I want to have no idea of the outcome. I want to have intention, but I want to let the “now” lead me where it may.

Maybe along the way I’ll manage to create a compelling image. Here’s hoping.

  • Scott Siesennop

    I want this one.

  • mimako

    The drawing itself is great, but what I like the most is the description beneath it. Art, for me, is that line that separates and in the same time connects  truth, reality, lie and illusion, individuality, and so on.  Therefore, in some way I think, art can’t be achieved if the goal is just to achieve it. Art you have to live, to be IT. To be honest in what you create, to be you. And that is why I liked the description, because, it is that line that I talked about before. It shows how your primal urge in creating this was self-growth, and even overcoming that dominating part of yours, trying to use it as a tool for creating something completely opposite of it.  And that is a fine reason for drawing, if you ask me.